I was told recently that I was lucky to be missing out on the "discomforts" of pregnancy and delivery, by a woman I met in passing with whom we chatted about our up coming adoption. I am absolutely thrilled to be adopting with my amazing husband, but I definitely do not consider myself "lucky" to be missing out on those "discomforts"... Especially since adoption has "discomforts" of its own.
Instead of a growing belly and having to negotiate with my wardrobe on a daily basis, buying bigger clothes and feeling like (what woman have described it to me as) a blimp. I have tiresome paperwork and forms to fill out, home study info, applications, and grants that take a lot of time and energy. Instead of morning sickness and feeling yucky and "puffy", I have agonizing nights waiting and wondering if our profile is being looked and and if anyone will like us. And instead of labor pains, I could have nervous days of praying that a birth mom will not change her mind and rip a baby out of our needy arms.
When adopting, a person misses out on feeling a baby move inside and feel him or her kick. They miss out on other people walking by and knowing a baby is on the way, and offer a sweet "congratulations". I am, at this very moment an "expectant momma" but where are the adoring eyes? Where is the joy that comes with this kind of expectancy?? We could very easily be within weeks or months of having a baby, but... Where is the blissful acknowledgment that I always dreamt came along with having a baby. So no, I do not feel lucky to be missing the "joys"of pregnancy and labor. I do however feel incredibly lucky to be a momma-to-be and be able to change the life of a sweet baby who otherwise wouldn't have been given a chance.
I feel so blessed that God opened this door for us and chose us to play such an important roll in Baby Alexander's life. And to bring her or him home (hopefully soon) and be the very best momma I can be to her/him!! God could have called anyone to step forward and He chose us, I am so humbled!!! I cannot wait to see who He has planned for us!! All I know is he or she is going to be absolutely amazing and do such profound things because the devil has tried so hard, for far too many years to keep us from having our children. And the simple fact that God is saving this child- wow, she/he will be a world changer!!! That is humbling!! That is intimidating!! That is amazing!! Thank you Jesus, we pray that we live up to your expectations of us as parents and raise him/her in the light of the Lord! And be good role models and leaders for not only this child to-be but for other children you have planned for us!! For this, we feel so lucky!! Amen!
Thank you for letting me ramble a bit and I pray you have a Jesus filled week! God bless!!
