Mother's Day

This has been a rough blog to sit down to write. For many years, Mother’s Day has been a hard day for me to face. Of course, I celebrate my own wonderful mom, whom I love dearly, but the day is painful because it reminds me that I’m still not a mother myself. Honestly, for the past four years, I have tried to hide from Mother’s Day. Church is the hardest because no matter what church we're at or what pastor is preaching, the service is a tribute to women who have children and it's a painful reminder of what I don’t have. 

Some years, it has felt easier to avoid the day and stay home in bed.
            God is good and I am so extremely grateful for what the Lord is doing in our family and marriage. This adoption journey is so exciting and I look forward to motherhood! But as we head into Mother’s Day tomorrow, I still am not a mother. While I am happy for our adoption, I still struggle with not getting to experience pregnancy and giving birth, and I mourn that loss in my life.  I know some people won't understand this, and I don’t mean to sound whiny or ungrateful. But, tomorrow, part of me still wants to 

stay hidden under the covers of my bed and not face another childless Mother’s Day.

            For now, I ask you—our prayer warriors, partners and supporters—to pray for strength for me. I also ask you to please share our blog and dreams of parenthood, especially for Mother’s Day, in honor of your mother. Our puzzle total is so close to half-way; we have sold 488 pieces!!! In honor of your mother, please consider buying a puzzle piece. Every piece helps us reach our goal and brings us closer to our baby!!