(Written December 5, 2014 ~ back posted)
I said before, each step of adoption has trials and difficulties, and each feeling harder than the last! I am just so grateful the birth mom signed her rights away as planned, because for about 24 hours it was iffy and we had to rely on the Lord during that time... praying we would stick with her plan to let us become the parents... But she did sign, and later that day, November 30, we were released from the hospital with our baby girl, and moved into a temporary GA house, with family of friends.
At this point, I am "imprisoned" in the state of Georgia, with a new born who could be ripped from my arms in the next few days,... we have 5 more days and 4 hours until the revocation period is over, and the birth mom has until that time to change her mind and take our baby girl! How in world would any mom handle this waiting period without the grace and guidance from our Lord?! Seriously... This is hard enough, even knowing He is in control... because each and everyday I fall deeper into her!
God is good, He will not fail me!
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"just the two of us..." |
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This sweet hand floors me everyday!!! |
The days and nights drag on as I do my best to learn her alone, Steven is back in Alabama working so we can give her the life she deserves. He comes to visit us on the weekends, but the rest of the time it is just us girls, and in the evenings our host and hostess who have taken in this new momma and newborn. Angels! Thank you Lauren and Steven, and sweet Evelyn!!! Thank you Christa and Jeremiah, and beautiful Briee!!
You gave shelter and refuge to a total stranger who was a stranger to this new role of mom...
May God Bless you more than you could every imagine!!:)
(Written December 10, 2014 ~ back posted)
IT'S OFFICIAL!!!! The waiting is over, she is OURS!!! For better, for worst... she's stuck with us!! Praise the Lord!! I'm still in Georgia, waiting for Alabama now to approve us to come back home, the state of Georgia has done everything they were suppose to- thank you GA! I wish we could be with Steven to celebrate this exciting moment, but for now we are apart... only 2.5 hours away but feels like galaxies...

We wait, and we pray, and we wait and we pray.... day in, day out... And we learn each other, one-on-one attention... She's learning me and how I will always be there for her when she needs me, and I 'm learning her like what each of her cries mean, and her body language... And the way she breaths when she's in a deep sleep, and her gentle coos, etc... she's breath-taking!!! I really wish babies came with individualized owners manuals, that would make these first few weeks so much easier. Especially during this time of being guests in someone else's house, in a foreign state and away from my beloved husband and new daddy...

She's such a beautiful blessing, and all I want to do is take her home and enjoy her, in our house, show her her room I have worked so hard on and share with her Steven. We have waited so long for her to come into our lives, I don't understand why we have to endure this additional waiting period, it's so painful... Is it insensitive of me to want to just coast for a little while, and enjoy her after so many years of waiting and praying for her? I know God has a plan, but like most of His plans, I don't have a clue as to why we have to go through this!! I just have to hold on to Him and trust Him to continue to lead us!