(Written at the hospital, the day she was born, November 28, 2014 ~ back posted....)
The call came in the middle of the night, Steven and I bounced out of
bed to start our 2 1/2 hour drive to where Baby Girl Alexander was to be
born "within the hour". Needless to say we both had to drive as safely
as possible but as fast a possible. The feeling that over came us during
that LONG drive was unlike anything else... Adrenaline. Nerves.
Excitement. Fear. Joy and Panic...
How will first contact be for both of us mamas? Will she fall in love and change her mind? Will the family cause a dramatic scene and make this adoption more complicated than its "planned" to be? Oh man, this is going to be a long 12-ish days till its "official and secure".
I am sitting here with her, I just feed her for the second time and she's now asleep on my chest- I am breathing her in and praying she is breathing me in. I want her I know my scent...to know me... to need me... She is simply breath-taking! Smells and feels incredible and I can easily fall head over heels in love with her once this is official. For now, I love her like all the other beautiful baby who has graced my life. I believe God has a protective barrier over me I feel until this revocation period is over and we are no longer at risk of her birth mom to want her back and change her mind. Once that day and time comes when she is truly ours, watch out!!!! This volcano of emotion and love will over flow and explode.
"Thank you Jesus for this beautiful baby girl! Thank you for this brave
and selfless mom! Thank you for allowing our lives to cross in such a
mind-boggling way! Thank you for your provision and your grace over
Steven and I as we continue to walk in faith with you! Amen!"
How will first contact be for both of us mamas? Will she fall in love and change her mind? Will the family cause a dramatic scene and make this adoption more complicated than its "planned" to be? Oh man, this is going to be a long 12-ish days till its "official and secure".
I am sitting here with her, I just feed her for the second time and she's now asleep on my chest- I am breathing her in and praying she is breathing me in. I want her I know my scent...to know me... to need me... She is simply breath-taking! Smells and feels incredible and I can easily fall head over heels in love with her once this is official. For now, I love her like all the other beautiful baby who has graced my life. I believe God has a protective barrier over me I feel until this revocation period is over and we are no longer at risk of her birth mom to want her back and change her mind. Once that day and time comes when she is truly ours, watch out!!!! This volcano of emotion and love will over flow and explode.
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